Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Closing time

I moved. And I want to go home. It's not just that I'm physically homeless, but...I mean, you get used to going back to the same place every night, and that place has your stuff and your stuff has a place. And no matter what, you get to go back to there. Now it's all


boxes and more boxes


empty


obsolete

I have a few trips (cross country drive, Seattle, maybe Hawaii) up my sleeve before I have to start work in October, so it's suitcases and travel size shampoo until then!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Now Go the F**k to Sleep

If you've ever tried to get a kid - or yourself - to go to sleep you know you've thought that at least once. Now there's a book with lots of fun rhymes that end, "now go the f**k to sleep." Haha.

In other news, this has been the fastest summer ever! I logically know that time is time, but it does seem to speed up as I get older. I remember summer breaks going on forrreeevverrrrr. And now, suddenly, I'm moving out of my apartment in a week. The apartment I've lived in and loved, my home, for three years. It's definitely not the classiest joint, but... It's been my haven from the storm. Good times, bad times, blah blah blah dirty tramp times. It's the home I made and the things that are mine. There are a lot of people moving, people I like and love and who I want to stay. A lot of people going new places and starting new things. I knew this day would come, but I'm really not ready for it. Life will be different, and right now that makes me sad.

I also got a job(ish) and I might actually like it. It sounds good on paper, and it sounds like something I would like to be good at, which I hope is a good start to actually being good at it.

My Lila Bean is 4 months old now, and she's the most intelligent, clever, fantastic girl ever.


Basically, she can roll over and over and over. And she makes the coolest sounds - they're like a cross between a velociraptor and a whale. But I'm pretty sure she is a genius.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Reverently Agnostic

I'm reading this book, The Year of Living Biblically, by A.J. Jacobs:

It looks like some Bruce Almighty kind of thing, but it is surprisingly reverential. And hysterical. And convicting. And insightful. And educated and educational. And hysterical. Among other things, Jacobs stones a self-confessed adulterer (with pebbles), wears tassels on his clothes, and participates in a chicken slaughter as part of a Hasadim atonement sacrifice.

He picks a few of the seemingly absurd commandments (building a hut, eating a locust, the tassels thing) to follow, but he always tries to follow the 10 commandments:

He says he's a secular agnostic, but I really identify with where he's at. I'm not agnostic (though Deism is appealing when I'm super pissed at God about something), but I am re-incorporating and re-learning how to relate to God. In some ways, it's like starting all over again. This book has actually made me want to read my Bible - more than any Sunday School teacher ever has. I'm also more convicted about my actions (what I say and think) and how much I pray than I have been by any youth camp (which, if you ever went to an evangelical youth camp, you know emotive responses are the goal!).

Friday, June 17, 2011

That's about right

This was my desk last week...

I noticed today (while I was getting a QT diet coke with cherry) that everyone has their own way of making their drink. I have the perfect formula for the right combination of DC, cherry, and vanilla. One lady was a purist - Dr. Pepper and nothing else!!! - and others were way weirder than I am. The guy next to me added about 8 different things to his 32oz plastic cup of goodness, and another sampled different combos before deciding on who knows what. Man. QT. Something for everyone.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Lucero is Mexican

I graduated seminary. Dang. Actually, more like: frickin-a, man.

I also forgot to put up pictures from my trip to the BWA Congress in Hawaii from July-August 2010, so here are some:






I also also went camping last weekend and had a lot of fun! Who knew?! Cloudland Canyon + the funnest group of people = sweet times.

Besides the intense anxiety of life change, that's about it :)

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

An Elseworld Jesus for a Failed Fundamentalist

(adapted from a Bible & Pop Culture journal response)


“Upon seeing ‘J’ walking down the aisle in cutoffs and a tuxedo T-shirt, God leans over to Pope and wryly notes, ‘Damn. I’ll never be able to retire.’” (C&W, 50).


It's okay. I laughed, too.


As I was reading the C&W article on the representations of Jesus – both for devotional purposes and in Elseworlds – I realized that I am much more drawn to the representations of Jesus in the Elseworlds. I like to engage the cultural presentations, the “cultural preoccupation[s] with Jesus and [the] playful willingness to engage in ahistoric aesthetic experiments in order to ask, ‘What Would Jesus Do?’ if he were dropped into weird environments” (49). That seems like much more fun and much more applicable to the world today than trying to re-create a Jesus in antiquity…definitely much more interesting.


I worry though, I guess, about that degenerating into mockery. I do not want to mock Jesus. I think that I like the Elseworld Jesus because it satirizes religion, and religion can be stuffy and ridiculous sometimes and we need (I want) to laugh at it for its ridiculousness. It's like the YouTube videos by Vintage 21 that satirize old school Jesus videos. They are hysterical and point out the silliness of the devotional type Jesus films ("There's that, and there's that"). I really never have been a fan of force-fed religion and the Elseworld representations of Jesus allow me to consider what I really think and give me the space to draw my own conclusions and to imagine (and throw out, if I desire) different aspects of Jesus’ character. I want to confront my fears and the limitations of my faith and figure it out; I realize, though, that sentiment does not apply to the majority of Christians or human beings in general. That is why I am at seminary, and at a seminary that encourages me to come to my own conclusions. I like the space to imagine Jesus, to laugh and to consider, being confronted with different ideas about him and Christianity within the checks and balances provided by a community of people doing the same thing.


And yet, my biggest fear is going from pointing out the inconsistencies and silliness of religion to mocking Jesus the actual person. I take Jesus seriously because I have wrestled – and continue to wrestle – with what I think about him and God. I love and respect Jesus the human because he stood up for what he believed despite his being “just another Jew in the ditch” (Howard Thurman, Jesus and the Disinherited). I do not understand how exactly Jesus the human is Jesus the divine representation of God, but I do believe it and respect the mystery. Process theism says it is because Jesus the man most fully responded to call of God upon his life (it's just so funny).


Then I consider that perhaps the Devotional Jesus side of things can become mockery, too, just on the other side of the coin. Sam Harris says that moderates are failed fundamentalists, unable or unwilling to pick a spot and park it. Atheists and fundies bookend the conversation because both have chosen sides. So, asking as a failed fundamentalist, can we have both? Can we poke fun at Christianity and not Christ? Can we re-imagine Christ and Christianity in positive, progressive ways and caricature that which we find absurd? Can we ask, can we trust, mainstream audiences (although, what is mainstream? and can we apply that label to those people drawn to this genre of popular culture?) to responsibly and maturely (whatever that means) view and reflect on this Elseworld Jesus? Are the majority of people only able to handle Devotional Jesus because Elseworld Jesus is too out there, too controversial, too threatening? How can we Elseworld folks be responsible about that, too?


Sunday, March 27, 2011

It's just so liminal!




I have a niece, and it is the most wonderful thing in the world.